Thursday, 17 March 2011

• A Day of Life

  What does this day mean to me? 

  It represents not just one person's birth but it represents my birth as well. 

  No, this is not my birthday. It's someone's birthday, but not mine. Or at least, not the way you would think.

  The very existence of this day helped me find life. It helped me to find God and Jesus. 

  And again, on this day, today, I will renew my life. 

  I will draw closer to God more than I did yesterday. 

  I will love God more than I did yesterday. 

  I will improve the quality of my life more than yesterday. 

  That's what makes this day so exciting and hopeful. 

  I love today. I love it that I can hope for something better. 

  I love it that I can envision a better me. 

  No, this is not about being better than someone next to me, or someone who is against me. 

  This is simply about being better than the "yesterday Naomi." 

   

  Of course, in this journey to a better me, it would be hard to measure my improvements if I didn't have someone to look up to, someone I admired or respected, or someone who is my inspiration. 

  I can confidently say that that person is Pastor Joshua. 

  I see him constantly improving himself. To me, that's humility. Seeing him seek more knowledge, more wisdom, more love, more grace, more, more, more of all the good stuff that God has to give. 

  And he tries harder. A little more than yesterday but nevertheless harder. A little improvement each day and before we know it, he is too far ahead that it is too hard to catch up. That's what I feel now. 

  Before, he got up at 4am to pray. Okay, that was hard but with hard work and effort, I got there. 

  Now, he gets up at 2am or earlier! Okay, that's a little too hard for me. I think I'll stay at 4am a little longer. But at least I know what I can work up to. 

  He is super busy but he manages to exercise 1 hour a day. Hmmm...when I'm super busy, I'm too exhausted to exercise or can't manage to fit exercise in. 

  Nowadays, I exercise but I feel that my work is suffering. So, hmmm...my goal, a good balance and good time management. 

  He prayed a lot before. He prayed even with people around. He would stall a little before eating a bite off his food. Everyone paused because it was so random and we would wonder what was wrong. It turned out, he was praying. ha! So I saw that and thought, okay, I can do that too. I'll pray in the morning, before I go to sleep, and even during the day as I conduct my normal activity. 

  But now, he just gets really deep into prayer for hours!!! 

  Anyway, I happened to reflect on myself and my inspiration, Pastor Joshua, on this particular day, and I thought, 'I want to be a better person, not to just anyone but in the eyes of God.' I'm glad that we have an example. 

  It's great to have a top swimmer to look up to, or a runner, or a singer or actor, person or persons who can inspire you to be better than who you are now. Because, heaven forbid, it would be terrible if we were content with the way we are right now. What can you strive for? I sure am not happy with myself 100%. If this is it and this is what I have to live with for the rest of my life, then what? 

  I wasn't looking for a swimmer, or a runner, or a singer, or actor. I was looking for someone who could inspire me to be good, to love God, to be a better Christian, to be someone who can listen to her conscience, embrace it, and choose what it right. 

  Thank you, God, for this day. 

  And tomorrow, will be another day like this one, where I will renew myself yet once again. 

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